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February 13 MY JOHN Who is John ? John is my boyfreind. where is John?I work in JiNan Shan Dong of China.Where is Mr john ? There is John.now he work in USA.Oh,very far.But i don't think far. Because of he fllight to China only one day.
Let me tell you about John .
For the firste time I meet John in airport JiNan city Shan Dong,China.Before everyday he call me.we like to say,"three more day!Two more day!One more day!" very funny for me.
On Nov.2 ,2007,He come to JiNan. This day i wake up early.then i clear my room.eaten food,dress up.try clothing let me became beauty!
When i look my watch,almost to one AM. . Then i rushly packing up.Quckily go to bus station. Have airplane bus,but to be late now.then i chane by bus.i never go to airport,don't know how about road.i by bus,when finish bus,i leave bus. i only see texi.the texi man ask me where i want go?i tell,but the man tell me 30rmb if i by texi.but i only have 21rmb in my wallet.Now 2:10PM.i am sad.very very sad. Now i show my money to this man,he let me by texi.only use this money.Good heart from he.after 10minutes John use China public phone call me.i say sorry to he,let he wait me 30minutes.he said,"no problem,i look book in bookstore,near coffe station."
I arrive airport at 3:10 PM.. then John call me,i look for John again,i hung up with he call, but i didn't find he.come and back,north and south,no find he. i rush look for every guys,but not find John.I don't know how to find he. then i go to service imformation station,let staff help me find he.but she not know English.i ask let me use broadcast. Then i according to her ask use English let John come here, When i Hung up, John call me.i wait he come,but never see he.later he call me again,but not see he,i ask he,"how many floor you there.""One floor." "Oh,John,i live two floor,wait,i down step,find you!"
When i down step,i see he,he see me too,He quickly hugs me and kiss my face.Then we are together leave airport by bus to JiNan.
He live JiNan with me.we together to walk,we like to look everthing.two days for JiNan's hill and lark. when i work,he walk single,take funny pictures let me see.i like also. when noon or dinner time,he with me together eate food,almost KFC,it near my work's front store.
Then we are go to shangHai by airplane come and back,before 17days i buy it ,so very cheap,now he back money to me already.
Then he let me for the firste time by airplane and ShangHai's everthing before i not visite they, Boating and round building and book libarary and mesu..etc.
After two days back jinan and go to my parents home town in HaiYang ,Yan Tai ,shanDong . there meet my familly person. then go to YanTai
city and QingDao city. look ocean, watch movie .then we together back JiNan.
Next time we are go to airport, this day he by airplane go to Korea ,then change airplane go to Los Angleos.
Before my English not good,when he back home,give me more books let me read.let me go to book store read America culture and history and other things that he think good for me.i follow he,i do they.now my mine to be rich,like to talk with life need.
I with my freind also think my English better than before,so thanks for John G.Because he everday teach me English words and use garama also corret they.If didn't know you,how i get better English.If didn't know you,What bad thing i will get,you give me buy CD player and CD teach me English.Everday you call me use your phone and cell phone.sometime you help me buy good food for my body.thanks.
YOu tell me later give me DVD player help me watch America movie ,if i watch more times,you think i understand America culture and English to be better also.
When every guys get off work back home with familly,but you not have familly,because not have me with you talk and together make food and watching TV and read a book together.I would like the both of us to read a book together.What things you do now? you go to other person home teach one child's maths for one hour. why you work hard?you tell me for your life.when weekend you not rest.you go to airport work and go to college for your two classes.Now i think you also for my life.everday you save money.you told me you have many problem,but you not like to tell me,because of you don't let me worry.thanks,my John G.
tomorrow is SEBR.14.is lover Day.I use my mine make word rose for you.i think you like to see this.
Tomorrow,Tomorrow, I will love you.
Tomorrow,Tomorrow,I will love you... September 25 STORY 3 THE FROG SONLong long ago. Have a couple still no child and live in a small village. The women till land and to do these house work. His husband is a teacher at a primary school. The women awfully long for a kid. One day .in summer. It’s raining . when rain is off. His husband go to a hill .when he go by a bit road and he hearing crying from a baby. So he follow the crying comes to a lotus side .He is conunced that crying of baby from here.So he attentive look for that baby at lotus pool. The frog at lotus.so he slowly comes this frog .hold on frog baby quickly the frog baby don’t cry. The man take baby back home and introduce frogs story to his wife. The women very glad have a son .Take care of he. Year and year he grow up. When his father go to school. His mom make lunch pack it carry on the back frog son. Then frog take this lunch bag go to achool .When he leave his house by pass a mone load. His beginning roll on land ,Then the frog became a handsome guy.Be arrive school is very quickly. When mone he rool again.became a frog.Behind his father’s glassroom.Then hearing his father teaching his students.none find this frog leaving lesson. Every day he hearing lesson.Few years by pass.His culture is good for he. One year. When he is 18 age . he roll became a hansome guy be a same age’s girl see his face when he became a guy. The girl tell he, whe will love he for every day. So they get wedding. When he roll became a handsome. His wife take his skin of frog hiding.so his husband no became frog again. Afterwards they are very happiness with they’s parents. STORY 2 SMALL DATE SONLong long ago.a couple live in hill. They married.wife with husband is very love each other.But years by pass.They haven’t children. So this time is day out fly go.have a day.the old women bear a like small date’s son,so they very happy.they give them son a name .call he is small date son. The small date son every day no grow up. Like last time same small. So people laughing them son.Angthing go to where.they take to get date son in insert pocket. This couple is honest person. Because of have a such son. These bad person bully cry. One day have bad guy bully them again .This time .them date son crawl out insert pocket of father. Then crawl in bad guys ear. Then bite his ear. Then the guy call “excuse me!my God!” This women is goodness.When date son ‘s mom said: “oh,my son.come out now.” Date come out. Because the guys know date bite his ear.so no longer bully them.nobady dare bully them . So they have nice life forever. September 21 Writing to Justin’s storiesStory 1 eating peach’s money
Long long ago, A group of monkey is play on hill.lots of flowers is open.in there.monkeys eating flowers.green and so on.they on and on dancing and singing,sunflower is high in flowers,very beautiful. Sunshine on monkey face. Suddenly have a day,blow wind.coil they go to sky. Fly and fly ,they sleep in sky .wind take they to far field. When monkeys is wake up. They discove there lots of tree in hill.but no flower. The ae very hurgry. Then they look for food, this time have a bith fly here fall on tree,looking for bug. Monkey ask the bird. What this can eating .we from long field. The bird said :”peach can eating it.but them have been flower , then get fruit.so you don’t eating it.if eating ,then no fruit eating.” “but no flower no fruit now.” “under tree have fall feaf ,maybe you can look for these dry fruit eating this time.” “ Now monkey start look for dry fruit. Lucky for they, find fruit. Choose dry peach on stone.then they give tree is water and turn earth. Time like fly go. Peach flower and fruit peach day and day then grow up. Monkeys altogether eating peach. Lollllll Peach is nice fruit. It is than flower is nice food. Wonderful! Afterwards. Monkey keep eating peach’s habit.
September 19 DREAMS OF SWANNO FLY’S SWAN One day, have a no wings swan comes to this earth. She want look for a nice field. So she comes to a new field. Beginning look for food. This field is wonderful! Every locate is beautiful for her. She like in here. Dancing and singing. Have a goodness women introduce a boy as her boyfriend. The no fly’s swan no like he, but the boy have a good job and family. His parents don’t agree his son find a no good job and no wing’s swan as girlfriend. Then have many friends introduce boys to her for boyfriend. The poor no wings swan. None love her and accept her, no love .alone in her life. One day, A cripple man said to her, “I love you, then I will marry you.” The swan so fall in love. She is happy every day. But after half a year, The cripple man no marry her. Leave her yet. The reason is his parents said to he, “this swan too young , maybe something day she is leave you when you old.” So the no wings swan is in sad. She go to seaside crying ever day. So she is ill now. She is sleep at speech. Fish comes to her side tell her: “wake up, I hope you have a nice body and happy day!” So the no wings swan creep up and back field. Start look for doctor, but need money. So she beginning look for job. She find a simple job. She look like fragile small bird, the no wings swan for have a health body then she beginning look for happy. Stop cry, forget sadly for that cripple man .after half a year , doctor is expel her ill. So the no wings swan have a nice body. She is funny smile to sky. It’s wonderful! Go to college comes to a big city. Year and year, her wings already grow up. But no fly , so she begin study fly’s action. After two years. Her wings is very beautiful. But no fly in sky. The swan isn’t high and long time fly in sky. So no good job to her. She usually no good food and no money rent nice room for herself. She is tired sadly,thin now. the swan don’t know why don’t remember fly action and no guys love her. So she hopeless look sky. No God help her yet. Working and working .try fly and fly. But no good food . no love. She beginning look for love and good job. No good job to her. Guys always cheat her. No love to her. But she no stop. Continue look for ture love. A simple shoes she wear it.no friends help her. Life like ice .freeze her heart and wings. No love and fly and food . but she no tears today.sleep and sleep. In her dream ,she is fly in sky, flying others dingdom. Look for her ture love and happy life. In this no flight’s small room, the swan is slept now. go on her dream. her flying others kingdom now. find a ture lovely guys. The swan with the guy get wedding. Then get happiness life.
August 25 烟的味道渺渺地,看不清地,它轻轻地,朦胧地飘过你的面前。 没有什么青香,没有雪茄的味道。 白将军的味道也没有,红将军的味道也没有再次地从我的面前出现过! 白将军是你的最爱! 红将军是你的最爱! 雪茄的味道是谁的最爱! 一屡屡地青烟混合在空气当中,没有将军和雪茄的味道,也没有回忆! 白将军的盒子还是那样的白!红将军的盒子还是那样的没有变化! 雪茄的味道还是那样的幽香! 不知什么时候变成了一枝笔一样的蓝! 似乎是那样地与前者不同,但却对它的味道没什么回忆, 只知道它与前者不同! 不同地没什么味道! 没有回忆的味道,但却忘却不了它的品质! 没有白白将军 那样单纯, 也没有红将军那样艳! 同样没有雪茄的高贵! 但它的蓝,蓝的有点冷酷! 感觉有点寒冷! 冷地难以忘记! 烟的味道! 难以忘记的味道! 笑谈成功与失败事业有成功与失败。 万物皆同! 人在拼博,人在地奋斗! 当你选择了一份事业,你要勇敢地做下去,也许不如上班,也许不如他人,也许你没有钱,你是一位白手起家的人,但你选择了,就要坚持下去,要做,而且用心去经营它!有一天,你会发现它在慢慢地长大!也许它有一天会生病,你要对病下药,医治它。爱护它。有一天,它会长成大树,也许在没成材之前,你会转手卖掉它! 有了昨天的经历,你在你的人生道路上会明白很多道理,让你学会用心去做事! 今天的失败,会成就明天的故事! 你会重新定位自己,重新选择做的下一件事情,离你的目标还很远,但你不能放弃,要把目标分成一段段的小的目标。每一次小小的成功会给你带来更大的工作信心! 失败的时候,我们要保持笑容,那不是嘲笑,是一丝丝的安慰! 成功的时候,我们要保持笑容,那不是骄傲,是对自己的肯定! 对于成功与失败,我们要从容! 学会笑谈成功与失败! 情如烈火 爱如火焰,尽情地燃烧! 你如烈火般向我扑来! 我在烈火中燃烧! 没有雷鸣般的暴雨! 没有海啸! 听不到你的声音,我的心在颤抖! 太阳升起来了,我从烈火中得到释放! 梦醒了,那个芭比娃娃还在我了怀中不停地眨着眼睛, 又在说“不起就迟到了噢!” 屋内还是一片漆黑! 如同夜一样孤单! 没有燃烧的火焰,没有了激情的海浪! 在柔弱的阳光不能穿过窗户! 没有阳光的房间如同没有爱情的自我! 情如烈火的心只能在梦中燃烧! 只能从梦中得以释放! 我情如烈火般在黑夜中燃烧! 直到变成空气中的细胞! 燃烧的生命! 燃烧了激情! 我情如烈火般地生长在宇宙中! 带着重要的使命来到人间! 我带着燃烧的激情来到社会中生存! 为了完成那个未知地重要使命! 我情如烈火…… 我情如烈火…… 紫竹林的疯狂 什么时候变得疯狂? 是那一次次地快速狂跑! 跑过一座座山。 在山的那头,有村庄。 那边的村庄,是你从没有见过的。 窄窄的路穿梭在有限的房子边上,显的艰难。 不知什么时间,偶然地跑到了这样的地方。 陌生的人,但有着热心肠。 集市上车辆还是过的很快,这儿的人少。 没有外出旅游的感觉。 电话没有响起。 大脑除了工作没有别的。 不是记者,没有像法国新闻介人士一样的疯狂。 一村又一村的留下我的脚印。 留下我的笑容。 这儿没有夜的寒冷,没有狂风和暴雨! 狂风暴雨的夜是那样的寒冷! 谁来为爱情买单一场场地爱情降落到人间,由爱情的使者来制造人间的爱情。 爱情一次次地被少男少女们尝试着。 当爱情结束时,一场爱情大餐品尝完毕,爱情有快餐也有火锅,有酸甜苦辣,各有所爱!也许你还在回味,但是你们谁来买单? 是你还是他(她)? 爱了就爱了,吃过就不记得下次还会不会再来? 会吗?不会! 爱情餐不同与西餐和中餐! 也许还会再次光临! 但不会永远相伴! 品尝完了,你就要走出去,工作,做事业,你是你,他还是他,他不是你,他不是他, 你要做自己的事情,这不过是一场与众不同的大餐! 谁来为爱情买单,不是你买就是他买,买不起就来个AA制吧! 爱情大餐的滋味只你品尝者心知肚明! 这份单买的值不值只有品尝了之后才明白! 明白下次还再不再来…… 如果合胃口,就不防签个协议,来个终生就餐! 那你就心甘情愿地买单! 隐居士 半年一转眼就要过去了。我的韩姬美包店要到期了,我开始隐居。 不知到什么时间,我再重出江湖! 人生多少波折,要等我去体验。 活着,生活,事业,家庭!我们要有责任!来源于金钱! 为了钱,为了明天的日子会更好,所以我来了一个人生的大变化! 为了他,我选择了那一条路! 为了希望,为了成就梦想!我开始放弃一些不现实的东西! 当你们还在梦乡的时候,我还在这里写文章! 当你们还在潇洒的时候,我还在工作! 当你们在谈恋爱的时候,我在学习! 当你们进入婚姻的时候,我在努力奋斗! 当你们有着车房来追求我的时候,我选择了事业! 当你们有了小孩子的时候,我那时还在向着希望在飞! 蓝天,大地,中间有个我,与众不同的我! 我没有蝴蝶般的美丽,但我想成就美丽的人生! 我不是林肯,但有着他的野心! 我不是朱丽亚,但我有着我的唯一! 今天的我悄然离开昨天,是为了明天! 今天的我如此这般,是为了理想! 今天的选择,是受贵人的指点,不是别人,就是你! 我悄然离开艺人的舞台,是为了成就更大更持久的艺术人生! 人生的转折点 高中毕业以后,我妈妈托人花了500元的培训费把我安置在奥威集团的九洲分公司上班,可是工资我们不是大学生,工资最初还不到100元。专本科也160元左右。我后来离开了那家公司。 之后,我去了一家工厂,工资也低的不能再低了,还不能安时领取工资。 随后,我就去了一座发展很快的城市,在那里的工资能自立。 我在汽修厂做过文秘; 在专卖店做过营业员; 在眼镜店做过营业员; 在一家商场经营过服装品牌; 在省级公司做过区域配件销售; 最后,我亦然辞职,选择了一所大学就读。三年半的大学生活丰富了我的人生阅历!学到了很我知识!开拓了视野!交了好多朋友! 毕业后,面临着一次又一次的转折,我敢于挑战人生! first fall love人愿意回味的日子。 凉爽的秋,晴空万里,充满快乐,耐人寻味。 那年的秋天,无忧无虑的我快乐的像只小鸟,话语间充满了诗情话意。此时的我天真无暇,看不懂什么是爱,什么是情。可是秋天过后,又是冬天,冬天的寒冷让草儿枯,叶儿落,花儿谢,鸟儿去。然而此时,爱情正悄悄地向我走来,那美丽的爱情在书中一次一次地被传说着,充满好奇心的我向爱情慢慢地靠近了。谁想那冬天竟然像爱情的坟墓,充满了凄凉和悲痛。下面就让我们走进那具冬天,了解那个爱情故事,看看那个最恨的人。 “你的电话”,“谢谢”。喂,“喂,是我。”“李焱,下下班了。”“我过去以后,时间大约就到晚上7点了,等我吗?”“我等你”。“啊,好幸福啊!”同事们开始拿我取乐。李焱是我表姐夫的同学。前几天我表姐夫与他高中的几个同学一起约我在一家酒店就餐,目的就是让我与李焱交往。初次见面,他的言谈举指,深深地吸引了我。他长我三岁。吸着烟。我不擅言,他们几个谈论着现在的经济发展状况和油田企业的机制改革,入市的状况以及每个人在工作中的表现及其与领导的相处关系等等。我觉得他还比较不错,脸上有一幅半框的银灰色眼镜,看起来挺顺眼的。饭后,我俩与他们告别。他送我回去,临走前,相互留了电话号码。次日,我表姐告诉我,说,“他觉得你挺不错的。”我告诉她说,“我觉得他也挺容易接触的。” 六点下班,天已经黑了,同事们相续离去。灯光陆续地撒在了高楼与路面上,喇叭声随之越来越多,我一个人站在这忙碌的马路边。人越来越少了,此时已经六点五十分了,过得那么慢长,公交车一辆又一辆地停下又离去,就是找不到他的身影。他终于来了,“我差点没认出 你来,我们一起去吃饭吧。”“可直觉告诉我,那个人就是你,虽然你背对着我。”说着,笑着,就进、去吃了便饭。因为外面很冷。他带来几块磁带,并告诉我他会唱很多歌曲,路上,他唱了《盛夏的果实》。回去后,从录音机里传出来的音乐,充满了伤情,就如林忆莲的《至少还有你》,张惠妹的〈我可以抱你吗〉等,我感觉不出这种伤情歌曲是否适合在这个阶段听。快晚上九点了,他该回去了,坐上最后一班公交车,我发现自己已经开始喜欢上他了,他离开后,我开始写日记,沉入爱情的我,写了一首首充满爱情的诗,与夜晚内心的空荡两者融为一体,体现出我的痴情。 “啪!啪!啪!”“谁啊”?“是我。”“等一下。”我急忙穿好衣服,打开窗户,打开录音机,打开门,他出现在我面前,我们之间的距离近了好多。原来他一早来送我上班,我好感激,洗刷完毕,他带着我,倚在他的背后,好幸福。在“永和豆浆”吃了油条和豆浆后,我们便开始上下班了。接下来的日子,经常地走神。“想啥呢?是不是又想李焱了。你说话呀,他又去接你上班了?”“是的”。同事们都笑着说,“我们当时也没有好好谈谈恋爱,找这么个帅哥,好嫉妒你。” 那天下了雨,公司里来了一位女孩,原来是李焱了姐姐。“我弟弟让我把雨伞送给你。”还有一次,下班后,他姐姐在路边等我,并把一个包递给我,“这是他焱让我把你爱吃的石榴,以及这些金银花茶送给你的。”我觉得他真的会关心人,比较细心。几日后的一天,他休息,从家里带来了感冒药,西红柿、鸡蛋,中午他炒了两个菜。隔壁的张姐问我,“是你的男朋友吗?人挺不错的。”他确实不错,而且还挺勤快,爱讲卫生。我不会炒菜,当副手,他制做的菜真的是口味好,我佩服他,饭后,他又去刷碗,每天把券都梳理的油光可鉴,走在人前人后,都挺显眼,我对他的感情已经到了一日不见,度日如年的地步。也许是牌对我的关心,我们双双出入各种各样的饭馆,向我们投来的目光率达到百分之七十,也许是羡慕。 十二月十六号,我们又到职大去报名参加自学考试,由此,我们又多了一个话题。有一天,下着小雪,他晚上做夜班,工作地方离我公司约半个小时的路程,他家离我公司步行约20分钟,他在我中午下班的时候与我一起就餐。午后我说:李焱,天挺冷的,晚上还上班,你先回去吧。他说,没事,他送我回公寓,二十分钟后,到了我所住的公寓楼下,放好自行车,便函上了楼,平时他挺喜欢听歌曲,不过今天,晚上上班,所以便在我这休息了。我怕影响他休息,轻轻地坐在凳子上,慢慢地翻读着《会计基础》。快两点时,我催醒了睡梦中的他,“我要上班了,李焱,要不你再接着睡吧。把钥匙给你留下。”“不了,我还是送你,然后我再去上班,在你们公寓休息,我怕睡过了时间。”“好吧,我知道你的工作积极性很高。”他平时就这样,即使晚上上班,白天也不好好休息。他平时很少回家,大都来往与单位与我约会,我因此被这个细心的男孩包括的很紧,好像他是为我而来到这个世界上。我爱他,他对我照顾的很好,我经常地感觉比起周围的同事来讲,是幸福的。 第二天晚上,我没看几眼书,便早早休息了。次日下午,我给他打电话,关机。到了下午五点的时候,我又打了一遍,“李焱,你刚才手机关机了。”“你昨天晚上几点休息的?“八点多吧。”我又一想,多说点吧,我不会怪罪我晚上没学习,懒惰了。“九点半吧,我也没看几点。”“可我快几点时去敲门,你没开门,声音很大,半个小时,你在宿舍吗?”“你什么意思,开什么玩笑,我不在宿舍,上哪啊?”“我当时就想把门踹开,可我没那么做。”“请相信我,你怎么无端说出这些话来伤害我。”“好,就这样吧!嘟,嘟……” 没有了精神的我,怎么也没想到会有这样奇怪的事情发生,再说,平时他先打电话约我,我们才相会的,昨天那么晚了,他不给我打个招呼,让我等他,我越琢磨越觉得受了委屈,不想让眼泪掉出,可已经打湿了桌面。同事们上来劝我,“怎么了,刚才还高兴的不得了,现在倒像六月的天,喜乐无常。说,到底怎么了?”“没事,让我静一静吧。”心想,我又不是属猪的,怎么会听不见有人敲门呢,听见了能不开门吗?这不是无事生非吗? 一个人,任凭寒风吹袭,像机器人一样骑着自行车,低着头,眼中充满了泪水,我恨他这种戏弄,我是个明白事理的人,挺讲理,这种不着边际的事,他也能用在我身上,一个月以来,感情发展的如此迅速,竟然被这样带有戏剧性的语言给击溃了,我要给他讲明白,他要还我一个公道,这样没有证据的话,怎能信口开河,这是对我的一种侮辱和讽刺,我怎能任他来诽谤我对他的情感,怎能不往君从千里来,孤存寒风中,任其心碎,拒君于门外。让别人都来嘲笑我对他的痴情。停下来,给他去打个电话。“李焱,请你别开玩笑?”不知为我的情绪现在稳定了下来。“真的,我当时很气愤,就想把门踹开,问你为什么不开门?”“怎么会呢?李焱,请你冷静想一下,你看阳台上有衣服挂在外面吗?”“有,你的毛裤和秋衣。”“是的,是真的,可我确实没有听见,我怎么向你解释,你才能相信我没有说谎!”“算了,别提了好吗?”我不想再解释。“吃饭了吗?”“我怎么会有胃口吃饭?”“天冷,快回去吧,我买点饭菜,一会我们一起吃。”“我等你。”四十分钟后,,他来了,我注视着他,无数具为什么,“怎么,还在想,过去了,别再提好吗?饿了吧。”“嗯。”他一脸的无所谓,也许事情真的是那样。刻雷雨交回的夜晚,我曾多次一无所知窗外事,一觉醒来听同窗亲人道来。“李焱,原谅我好吗?”“没事了,趁热快吃吧。”慢慢地嚼着,心情却不好,脸上没笑容。“这两天学进去了吗?”“李焱,这件从天上掉下来的事情终于过去了,我发现感情这东西,需要很大的勇气去接受,去面对,更需要人变得坚强。”“就这么点事,别把什么事都想的这么复杂,看你心事重重的样子,不要这么约束自己的言行,平时,有什么话就把它说出来,别压抑自己。”“今天晚上的星星很少,不知道它们跑哪里去了,赤裸裸的天空,星星多寂寞,我以为伤心可以很少……录音机里传出了辛晓琪的《味道》。 次日早晨,他还是像往常一样来送我上班,我的笑容不再像以前那样甜蜜了,坐在自行车上的我,双手把他抱得紧紧的,生怕去他。 几日后的一天,接到我弟弟的电话,祝我生日快乐。 十点多时,进来一位女孩子,给我送了玫瑰。是李焱找人送来的。又被同事取乐了一回。“哇,我们过生日的时候,老公没有送玫瑰”。“是啊,看她那脸还变红了,害羞呢。”“我要与我老公分手,再找一个,感受一下这种浪漫。”同事们开着玩笑,直到逗的我笑出声来。“快看!”这时李焱进来了,我起身说了声“谢谢。”一包粟子,一包松子放在我手里,我看着他,心想,其实爱情并不需要被物质包围,只要时时给对方一份惊喜,一份笑容就足够了,彼此相互的牵挂,站在这里的少男少女,不就是爱情的代表吗?“你别请假了。”“今天是我的生日,我下午可以休息,我不能让你一个人来渡过这一天。”“好吧,把自行车钥匙给我,中午我来接你。”他拿了钥匙离去。 中午,他带着我到了蛋糕店。“我已经订好了蛋糕。”店员取了刚做好的蛋糕放在柜台上,我拿着玫瑰花和蜡烛,他提着蛋糕,我们又去了柏拉蒙酒家,在一个长方桌子上放下东西,便坐了下来,点了我爱吃的松子玉米,炒蛤蜊、豆瓣鱼和他喜欢的西红柿炒鸡蛋,不时地有就餐者回过头来观看,我沉浸在幸福之中,“谢谢你,李焱。”“我们之间还用这么客气吗?”“你总是带给我幸福快乐,可你却很少回家,比起老人家来,我幸福多了。”“长时间不回家,偶尔回去一次,父母对我很好,做很多我爱吃的菜,感觉挺不错。”饭后,他送我回去,并向我道歉,说他有位同学也是今天过生日,我让他过农历,他不听,非要今天过生日,也难得,今天是圣诞节麻。我不知道要向我道什么歉,我用疑问的眼光看着他。他继续说:“我今天晚上必须去参加生日宴会,饭后,还要一起打保龄球,“那你去吧。”拍着我的户膀,“你什么时候去?”我问。“四点半就跟你出去溜一圈,然后我去,你再回来。”“现在呢?”“你学习吧,我休息一会,昨天上了夜班,今天一早洗完澡,吃了点饭就赶来了。”我把花儿解开,用剪刀修了一下,插在了磨沙的花瓶中,放置在写字台中间,房间顿时变得高雅起来。顺便把地上的那盆佛手花搁在窗台上,让它感受一点阳光。此时的他,已经进入了睡梦中,伴随着呼噜声,我有些心疼,看样子,他真是累了。窗外的雪还没有融化,看着看着便回忆起…… 前些日子,我同事对我说,他确实对我挺好的,我的心早就跑他那儿去了,重色轻友型成了我的代号。认识我没几天就给我送了一条漂亮的丝巾。我也给他买了围巾。接下来他送给我一条灰格子围巾,我就送他一支唇糕。“天天暗送秋波,魂不守舍,你也太痴情了吧。” “不过他的工作挺危险的,那么高的油井架子,机器里有时会有螺丝迸出来,是危险的。”我确实对李焱动了感情,我愿意和他在一起,他对我很好,我已经很知足了,记得他有一次去接我,因为我起床晚了,在路上催他骑得快点,别迟到了,他说让我别急,晚不民,骑快了,水就会溅到我衣上了,这时我才注意到公路上的雪水还在。 不不觉已经快四点十分了,我坐在写字台前,开始学习。真不忍心喊他起床,没想到铃声响了起来,原来他早定好时间了。 两人出去逛了超市,我说,不早晨了,你去吧,我自己回去吃。“好吧,价钱晚上等我切蛋糕。”说着,他揽了辆出租车,付了钱,“不能偷吃啊,一定等我。”“是”。笑着走了。 21:30,他还没有来,22“00过去了,我睡了,醒了,我便把门锁上了,亮着灯便又躺下了。不知什么时候,“啪!啪!啪”!天哪,他来了,这么大的敲门声。“我来了!”“你等了多久?”“小时了,我想,你再不开门,我就回去了。”“快进来吧,对不起,上次的敲门声也这么大吗?”嗯,都我不好,这么晚才来,让你睡着了,快别说了,把帽子给你戴上。“我感到很滑稽,他开始插蜡烛,我也上来帮忙,开始点蜡烛,让我关上灯,蜡烛全燃了起来,我开始闭上双眼许愿。许好愿,他望着我,笑着说:“我们一起吹蜡烛。”打开灯,把中间那朵最大的花切了下来,放在纸盘上,我接了过来,“谢谢。”我沉浸在幸福之中。为了我,又要让他回家挨训了。他母亲好像不太喜欢我,其实就因为我不是正式职工。他离开时,已经十一点二十了。任他一个人走在这默默的路上,心中充满了歉意。 元旦那天,他上夜班,我想,没人陪我了,七点时,“啪!啪!啪!”“谁啊?”“是我!” 一连几日过去了,他没有来电话,我便回了过去,“对不起,你所拨打的用户已采用自由寻求呼,留言请按……”一连几遍都是这样。第二天,第三天都是这样。 一周后的中午,终于打通了电话,“李焱,我终于打通了你的电话,你怎么了,一直不开机?”“我感冒了,怕传染给你。”“现在听起来好像好了。”“嗯……是的。”“你说话的声音……以前不是这样,是不 有话要跟我说?”“嗯。”“要不我们好好谈谈吧。”“……好吧,中午有时间吗?”“中午值班,晚上吧!”六点钟。“好。”放下电话,我控制不住,已泪流满面。怕同事们瞧见,跑进了洗手间,镜子中的我,哭泣个不停,几次想安静下来,出去上班,可是情绪越来越糟糕!擦不去的眼泪,止不住的哭泣声,我忙换下西装,穿上外衣,用围巾把脸遮住一半,戴上眼镜,拿着包走了出去。“经理,我头有点痛,下午休息。”“是不是去职大上课?”“不是。”“吃点药”。“谢谢。”头也没回,一路上,泪水总是抑制不住,中午洗了点水果,没吃几个,今天中午,邻居们都在,一个人拉好前窗窗帘,把音乐打开,取来那束玫瑰花放在手中,琢磨着爱情,问人世间情为何物,竟伤这位痴情少女,情从何来,爱从何来,短短几天,竟同阶级敌人,他既然不爱我,没关系,为什么不早说,前前后后所做的一切都是为了演戏,何苦?最后放下花儿,倒在床上,任泪水如溪,流下脸颊,不知何时睡着了。 下午六点钟,他很准时,进门后,我看着他,如以前没有变化。他笑了笑,说:“这么严肃。”“李焱,你不喜欢我,对吗?”“不是不喜欢你。”“那你为什么这么多天竟不与我联系?”“我觉得我们两个人不合适。”我的心在颤动,呆在那里,没说出一个字来。我起身走向床前,把已经包好的书,磁带还有那只狗以及给他洗的衣服。又拿起另一个袋子把桌子上的不倒翁,化妆品放了进去。“这些你留着用吧。”他边说边向外拿,我又放了进去,拎起另一个袋子,放在他面前,他接了过来,我转身把门打开,他看着我,说:“我走了。”“路上慢点。”看着他走向楼梯口,我关上门,背靠在门上,放声大哭,“为什么,为什么会这样?”可是没有人应答。我忽然记起忘记把我的照片拿回来,他把我的照片一直放在钱包里,一共两张,顺手从像册里抽出他的单人照,摇了摇头,撕了个粉碎。关上灯,已成泪人,爱悄悄地来了,又匆匆地走了,爱如心肺,疼如刀刻,原来一开始就注定了要分离。看那伤情歌曲,不就是为今日面准备的吗? 爱情走了,带给我痛楚,我恨你,能扔的我都扔了,可是却不能从记意深处赶走他的影子。我始终不明白他为什么离去。 半年后的夏日,在职工餐厅的圆桌上坐满了穿青灰色衣服的年轻人,什么打扮?我与同事在对面的桌子上,坐了下来。一开始对面的年轻人还说笑,后来便没了声音,我突然愣住了,他——李焱,那副眼镜,长得多么地像啊?难道真的是他?看着看着,他们已经离开,我追寻着他的身影,可是已经消失在人海里。 爱情应该是美丽的,可是给我留下了伤痕,我不再想念爱情,远离爱情的我,把心思全用在事业和学习上。 天朦朦,地茫茫;星星也朦胧,月亮也朦胧,人也迷茫,情也迷茫,那个弃我而去的人,曾让我的眼泪就像下雨。 |
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